The Truth is a Lie

2010-03-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

Game Over Man.

I've gone TUMBLR! Hopefully, I won't post here anymore.

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2010-02-22T01:49:00.001+08:00

Sing Us A Song Won't Ya?

Hectic week omg. Okies... Lets see:

Feb 15th: Monday... i dun really rmb so nvm! XD

16th: Tuesday... went out to celebrate zhenli's Bdae! We went to eat Botak Jones, watch Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief (For me again -.-) and gamble at alvin's hse overnite! Mahjong really keeps you awake sia. I didn't sleep at all. When janjan, zhenli, ericson, wangwang and me wanted to go home the taxi didn't allow 5 ppl zzz so i WALKED home siansss at 7am in the morning.

17th: Wednesday...at home nearly the whole day z.z study study omg i wanna forget this hahas!

18th: Thursday...test day BUOM... Tired daooo damn i really cant remember much of this day o: oh yeah last minute overnite wif wan wang wang and ericson cause wan didnt noe test at 9am LOL

19th: Friday... Woke up 30mins to test time. I think i woke up inbetween to TRY to study but... Oh well -.- after 9am test went back to clubroom to study wif serene. Ok fine I slept a bunch also LOL I must thank serene for helping me alot here :D THANKS SERENE!

At gym, got weird phone call -.- all leading up to dinner and movie wif JT and his cousins afterwards o: Valentine's Day is nice, but depressing for me XD

20th: Saturday... Went to visit relatives! Ended up playing abit of dota LOL i havent touched it for like a few months alrdy omg. My reactions have dulled x( anyways my cousin got sofa damn cool! Its a three seater with 2 of the seats able to become like bed liddat omg. Couch-potato heaven! And... YAYEE hong baos at last xD

21st: Today! Wahaha Im going to penisular to setup my guitar and go clothes shopping afterwards! And im typing this cause im bored on the train right now HAHA!

Oh man -.- i type all that and only remembered to post now. DUMB!!!

2010-02-15T04:05:00.000+08:00

CNY!

Mood-less one at that, truth be told. There just isn't... that sort of festive air at ALL.

Maybe its just me. Maybe its cause I like haven't visited ANYBODY'S house for CNY at ALL.

Well its not like I dun want to -.- But all my visitable relatives are like overseas and those who we MIGHT visit won't be visitable without the relatives who are like currently not here. So yeah this sucks. CAUSE NO MAHJONG -.-

Ahh man. Dunno wad to say. Okies im like off... Maybe continue some other time

2010-02-11T03:12:00.004+08:00

Looking, But Not Seeing...

Routine is out, randomness is like the new In right now.

I guess I should just enjoy it while I can right now, enjoy whatever I have and make the best of it.

Seriously, I fear ITP. What's gonna happen when I go off for a semester of work -.- Its gonna be damned boring I think.

By friday, the last assignment will be in. And then, things are probably gonna get real interesting from there on. =)

Frickin' tired. I. Am. Drained.

Try as you want,

Try as you might.

Change many things you can't,

Listen to yourself you should never.

2010-02-07T10:38:00.000+08:00

That little glimmer, at the end of the line

Clinging on to it, everybody tries.

If you let go, what will you find?

Oh I'm sure, this heart o' mine would die

2010-02-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

Overnight Sensation

HAHAHAHAH LOLOLOL -.- Havent updated in awhile so Im like typing this on the train. Temporary high :)

Die liao lar this week has got to be like the overnite week I will always remember

Its not about the days, but more like how tired I am omg. But still, I have like done alot lars

Last friday: WEBA assignment

Sunday: WEBA assignment and BUOM

Yesterday Wangwang came my house overnite xD cause he need to use my com to render his maya for his demoreel for use in interview later. So yeah, since he wasnt sleeping I only managed to pei him till like 4 nias :(

Im gonna go for my own interview later. 4pm at Baxter Healthcare, which is like 2 bus stops and 400m away from my house! If i really get the job I duno wad to think sia o: cause its like I'll be alone but its damn near my hse sia.

At time of writing this, Im just gonna go school, take attendance and just go home. No gym for today! Sry wan D:

My computer renders maya frames 2 mins faster den school com... YAYEE ok but i feel nerd saying tat -.-

Is it all a fleeting dream,

or might it be bitter reality?

Lost track of everything...this insomniac

seems only able to follow his heart

2010-01-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

Here We Go Again...

Wow. I feel like the weeks just come and go. Yet another week has gone.

Soon, there would be changes yet again. Deadlines are getting nearer, term time's getting shorter.

Seriously, I'm like a freakin' bad blogger. Oh well. -.-

Yeah -.- seriously now. I feel brainless.

2010-01-22T01:46:00.001+08:00

The Inbetweens

Words fail me.

Ever wanted to speak when you wanted and couldn't? Do something you wanted and couldn't?

Yea. Ya made me so.

Ever along this winding road

Where everything seems like touch and go,

Until you're breathless, facedown on the road

No longer possible for you to go?

Further up, along this road

Is it where you wanna go?

Backed up, crawled up the road

Hoping fearfully that it's your place to go...

2010-01-16T21:21:00.001+08:00

Breaking Limits

Life is... good for now. Heh.

Having the time and will to go run, go gym and to rush assignments. Hmm, I think I could get used to it.

Oh well, the days fly past lately. Tiring but fun... and satisfactory.

Last night overnited again. Did abit of work but mostly had more fun xD tml's definitely gonna have to be a javascript day. w3schools here I come -.-

But wait... tml's also my driving theory evaluation test LOL hopefully I pass so that I won't need to worry till 26th Feb, when it's gonna be the basic theory test. Tml's schedule: Driving evaluation, gym, home for javascript.

Yeah, I'm sure Monday will come like damn fast, and I'll be wondering where the heck my sunday went >.<

Not much else to say for now and I don't really feel like commenting on smt completely unrelated and random anyways. So yar............. Life's mostly smooth for now. Living on with the same objectives, same thoughts and probably similar schedule till this semester really comes to a close.

Oh, for a life like yours or mine...

go do something worthwhile,

make up your mind.

Before you turn worthless all the while,

rotten deep in the mind

and lifelessly give a smile...

2010-01-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

Busy, busy, busy.

Yeah haven't got time to write in here for a awhile already (obviously) which is yeah a little sad cause quite abit has happened in the past few days.

Quite glad that I started learning driving already. Just had the first theory lesson today.

Ok tired. I shall return when I see fit to. (Or feel fit to xD)

Is there a reason for all that we do?

Or perhaps sometimes there's just none at all.

But is it possible that we just...

Can't face the reason for doing what we've done?

2010-01-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

New Year, Long Time

I'm like supposed to talk about the subject above and I'm like late two days. But oh hell here's my new year eve:

1. Mahjong in the morning LOL

2. Astons for dinner

3. Running at night

4. Went to see some 'jamming' countdown thingy @ the open field near causeway point (The band (Y) I like)

And yeah. That's it. Abit no life but oh well xD

Friday, went grandma's house. Not much to say, there watched the pirated version of Jay Chou's Teasure Hunter and felt... VERY SLEEPY omg

Today. 2pm supposed to meet MRT to go gym. Ended up meeting at 3.30 -.-!

Den went sembawang to fix SX's cousin's computer. I have no idea how she managed to uninstall a bunch of drivers from the laptop LOL.

Nothing to do, so walked to admiralty MRT from sembawang den MRT'ed home.

And..... yeah, thats it. LOL

He sits there unmoving

So cursed to the very bone

Due to opinions disapproved

Thus now cannot even groan...

-The Man Who Went Against The World

2009-12-26T02:44:00.001+08:00

Bitten Off and Thrown Away...

Mmm lets start with this:

Hmm, someone's kumashi. What can we do with it?

o.o! No limbs bwahaha

Right under the owner's nose :)

Animal Abuse? Hmm.

Disapproving owner >.<

Dun worry, we didn't hurt kumashi that much... I think xD Anyways...

Yeah, that's me.

23rd of Jan, We went to Sakai Sushi to celebrate Jialing's belated B'dae! Damn coincidence, we took like 3 tables at the back and JT with his cousins took the 4th table from the back! LOL I didnt even know he was coming that day lars!

Here's a few pics from that day, the rest on serene or del's camera

Daniel!

I think alvin looks like wan and serene's kid here LOL

HF!

Daryl!

We all like damn hyper cause we DOUBLE ordered from the computer! 60++ plates of scallops, takoyaki, crabsticks and MORE. The chanwanmushi came until the egg in it tasted SERIOUSLY bad. I even had to offer a few plates to JT and his cousins... SORRY XD

Mahjong at SX's home after that at night. DAMN HIGH :D

WOOHOO this is like damn heng lars

24th, Mmm messy day. First went to gym with Wan and the guys, then I rushed home, went to Admiralty to hurry some even LATER people den me LOL. Went to orchard cine to eat KFC -.- and watch Bodyguards & Assassins! (Though it wasn't THAT good)

After that, met up with DMIT-tians! Went to walk around Orchard to feel the Xmas mood! (Even though it wasn't really much...) Counted down on the way up to Orchard central, Dodged bunchs of party sprayers (me and wangwang kept wondering about why they do that... no answer for now) and after that, went to see Sherlock Holmes! The dialogue is SO intriguing, with the expected wonderfully BRITISH accent HAHA.

Was about 5.30am after the movie. We went to packet some Mac, den went to Orchard Midpoint the stairs there to sit and eat. Den we took the train from somerset MRT HOME!

Sadly, this is like the only pic I have of that day. Alvin say they look like couple xD but i say they like siblings LOLS

.........

I think we humans have evolved. Something like death can happen, and people just go through it unfazed. Today on Xmas, someone I was related to, but only seen once or twice simply went. I say to her, go and find your peace. And perhaps, true happiness.

Life's so short. Should we all just try for what we want... right now?

I'm so evil, so utterly vile...

I should be buried
Deep under to a mile.
To remain there, to cause no worry
Why would this be... just how?
So that my heart would cause no flurry...

2009-12-22T03:12:00.002+08:00

LAST CHRISTMAS?

I'm like in school now haha, supposed to do assignment with Wan but we sorta gave up after 3 hours x.x

Few days on, it would be Christmas. I don't feel the mood at all haha. Oh well, I havent felt it in like a few years already...

Sad, isn't it, that something so wonderful, so amazing and cool at a single point in your life would just become... plain, simple and just another thing that goes past in your life.

Cheers, to the X'mas spirit. I doubt I will write here again 'til after X'mas and so...

Merry Christmas, I hope all your wishes come true.

Thief of hearts, thief of hearts...

Why do you hurt so much?

Infatuations, Loves, Obsessions, Crushes

Pain and void, from a stolen heart...

2009-12-20T02:01:00.003+08:00

FEELINGS...

Aye. I felt like that like a few hours ago. NIGHT CYCLING!!! (Y)

We went from ECP to...

oh forget it. I'll let the pics do the talking : D

This was near a bridge @ Kallang Stadium

Suntec There :D

Near Singapore Flyer...

SATAY!!! @ LAU PA SAT! We ordered like 150 sticks lars LO

Vivo!

Lol wtf jan -.-

We all sit around vivo to slack for like 2 hours

Den headed back after Vivo

Dunno why river got box -.-

Night Cycling! (Y)

Managed to haul my ass back home. Slept on the train x.x but I must applaud the others, like Alvin who had to go back to school before going home cause his laptop's there.

Touched down home @ like 11am. Bathed, then got in front of the computer and started calling people o: I ate abit, den went to slp on the floor LOL. I got up again, ate lunch, and SLEPT AGAIN x.x omg its like damn unhealthy lars.

I told SX i meet him like 7.30 @ admiralty MRT. But I woke up at like 7.15. Pei him go his cousin house, play abit of basketball. Im like so noob at it lars -.-

I'm so sick of being betrayed by myself...

To stop myself from feeling...

To do it again, like in the past.

T'was easy then but I'm now wondering,

How different was this from the last?

2009-12-17T00:33:00.000+08:00

The Harmful Effects Of The Lack Of Sleep

Yeah. Lack of sleep is seriously, seriously bad for your health. Nope, its not that your body gets weaker. Actually, from what I am experiencing lately, it affects mental mood. ALOT.

Everything seems to weight down on you more. Especially negative emotions. Sure, you get high, but like a drug, after it wears off. YOU. FEEL. LIKE. CRAP.

Den the day just simply, drags on. And on and on. With that weight on your mind, there's no way for you to concentrate... =(

It all went by in a rush. You hope for it to be just a bad dream. But then, when you wake, you just find yourself in a nightmare, beyond all human comprehension and with seemingly no way out.

What can you do then... but despair?

Your mind questions.

No answers come.

Seek them will you?

Till the very end...

2009-12-15T02:00:00.001+08:00

And So The Wheel Turned...

Randomly, today could have been an overnight session of mahjong.

Unfortunately, that didn't happen. :(

Good thing is, i got new stuff to DL, finding nemo (leo) and medicine for melancholy. (wang ting)

Sometimes the good thing about having people asking me to download stuff is that I get a great new bunch of collection of stuff I can randomly watch... when, if and hopefully, i got the time to be bored enough for that.

Hmm. It's weird. I have nothing to confide. Seriously, nothing at all. Maybe that's why I feel so bored sometimes -.-

To not care... shows contempt?

To not care... means its unimportant?

To not care... is to not bother?

If that is so... why bring it up at all?

2009-12-13T19:09:00.000+08:00

Sunday!

Today is a random day. Actually many days are random alrdy but oh wth i nthing to do in clubroom alone marhs.

Why I at clubroom lehs? Take home lappy, jacket, blow free air-con? And johnson damn lucky he ask me about ITP survey -.- if not dunno when he den will do dao.

I woke at like 9.30 today. Dunno why still can so early wake up zzz. Den i veri sudden, go downstairs bought lunch for mom and dad. Oh bought my HP screen protector also : D When i buying that, i met my sec sch junior sia. Damn long never see her. Too bad she like rushing den chat abit nias... Hmm people from the past...

Watched abit of anime. Den suddenly, i go my room and NAPPED LOL for like one hour. -.-

Den i went to sch. Later meeting alvin and janielson. They say want see movie but I JUST RMB TODAY SUNDAY veri ex -.-

Oh well. Now is like damn the quiet! School so peaceful =D

Dun think I would be able to go out tml... maybe in the evening? I need to arrange 100+ helper positions for SP Open House -.-

Zzz xuan making me hungry with her GRILLED CHICKEN TEPPANYAKI BURGER -.-

Ok nvm i random. Argh.

Tuesday need to go school again. 10am for some briefing for assignment... den maybe gym? Den after that got SPSU Dinner & Dance... sian I monday want go buy new clothes for that... I think forget it, buy for DMIT Dinner & Dance nia.

Alritez! Johnson almost finishing his survey liao and I can go soon alrdy. =D I should blog in school more LOL so that I wont forget what I wanna blog about.

Alone, you can be efficient

Alone, you are able to think

Alone, you won't doubt

Alone, all the time, makes you inhuman

2009-12-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

Cage In A Cage

It is a temporary respite... just for a moment, a day, to let my hair down... (not that its that long anymore)

The long slog... is finished. The greater, longer slog... is ahead.

For now. Calm the mind, soul and heart. The waiting game has once again... begun!

There will be...an end...

2009-12-11T10:33:00.000+08:00

End Of The Line

Soon its all over...

Soon it will be a new story, a different kind of joyride.

There might be, there might not be... but still, I wish myself luck in all my ventures.

Irreversible Changes...?

Wonder how it would be?

Negative emotions all around

Heart torn out,

Mind's all battered.

2009-12-09T00:50:00.000+08:00

CrushCrushCrush

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Mmm dunno why. Suddenly addicted to this song LOL

Anyways. Things are worrying now. I just dunno why but... even when I'm not supposed to be doing something... I just see the need to help, be there, be a part of and to watch over.

It's not a burden. It's more of a... mandate? Directive?

Soon... this dream will end. It's December... wth. Time just simply flew...

Many things just don't really make sense. Really. Not at all. How come this churning pot of humane desires could change so quickly...like now

Haiz. Humans. Always wanting what we cannot obtain. Oh well.

So near, yet so far

Waiting alone

To move, yet stationary

Waiting... alone

2009-12-08T02:44:00.001+08:00

OPINION

Haha. Who cares about it? People give it, people take it and go. But since it's simply the whim of a person to suddenly give it...it's ignorable? It's unimportant? Hmm... ok this was random.

It's getting twisted. Seriously. Out Of Proportional. Suddenly, as I've said once before to someone, my life is getting to be so random lately. Like you never know whats gonna happen... even in the next 5 minutes.

Oh well, I think that goes for the rest of us now. Unpredictability... of course it makes things much more interesting... but just sometimes...I sorta wish that this kind of feeling of uncertainty wouldn't be here. At least... there might be something to be certain of? Something... hmm

It's the start of the holidays... and yeah the start of the exams. Never once though, I've really felt like I was taking some sort of serious test ever since poly started. Heh that's good I guess...

What's there left for me...? Not much I guess. Should I just continue? Or have I just simply have something to say. But cannot feel it? Oh well. Let us go with life...

What can be there but naught?

What can pinch the heart within?

The mind or the heart?

Desire...or Sensibility?

I seriously got some crazy talk sometimes...but is that the voice within?

2009-12-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

DUST N' BONES

Weee tiring day/days... so happy cause...

YAYEE MY BITTORRENT DONE

Hurray to those who accompany me today ^^

Hmm. Xmas is near. Will there be something special? Or will it be another one of those silent nitez?

Try...to get to sleep...

2009-11-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

I reach this page, den i lazy liaoz.

NEW SLIPPERS.

YAYEE

2009-11-23T21:09:00.001+08:00

Downfall

Sucks to sick. Honestly, who likes being sick?

Anyways, last week was rather fast. One assignment down in that duration. It didn't even really feel like it was that important. Hmm well, come to think of it... whats there that's important anymore?

Mmm seriously i don't really remember much of last week. Hah.

Let's see. Maybe my handphone cam can jog my memory...

See Zhi Kai so hardworking... while I...

Was transferring PSP games LOL! I think this was MDAD lesson, tuesday

And I think this was Wednesday, when we went to help Wan carry NEWater from Kranji

This one of Zhenli being tortured (as always) was during Cheryl's Bdae party!

The Bdae girl herself!

Rock Band!

Photographers!

Heart to heart talkers

Saturday, we went for xuanjun's housewarming

Yah. This guy's house

This one was when me and HF were on the train to catch paranormal activity and pres, zhenli and jan were going home.

I SPAMMED!

And before we got out...

Pres and her middle finger! (It's cut off)

Saturday was a pretty long day. Probably because it nearly consumed half of my sunday as well. But it was worth it!

Imagine you're at Orchard waiting for a 1.20AM movie and the time is like 11.30??!

Yep, me, hermi, hanfeng and huixuan. We ate like 26 pieces of nuggets at The Heeren's Mcdonalds and cause nothing to do, we go walk walk around orchard!

Photo time!

Seriously, all the reindeer statue faces look like shit.

Outside of ION

Right after all that, we headed back to Leisure to watch PARANORMAL ACTIVITY <<< GOOD!

After the movie we headed back to XJ's house for mahjong

Then...then... I reach home, 9.30. Went to sleep in front of the computer.

Sunday, 12pm. My relatives came to my house and I seriously wasnt a very good entertainer...unless you count waking up like ten minutes before they arrived, sleeping like half the day afterwards and going to the doctor after waking as being entertaining.

Oh well. So sucks to be me right now. But so what? It all still goes on. Now the question is whether or not I am able to wake up tml early for my 8am GEMS.

Being home the whole day sucks. But when you're out the whole day, sometimes you just feel like going home xD

When you are swallowed

by the dark, filthy hollow

When you are surrounded

by endless void all around

When you are,

Know that hope is near, here already

2009-11-19T01:35:00.000+08:00

Never Never Never

Mmm I havent had this feeling in a long time already... staying up late to finish up schoolwork haha.

Just finished editing my group's report (i think we already 800+ words over the required limit) and I hope we would be able to finish it up tml... together yeah -.- if i dun come to class that late.

I just don't really feel like im here completely... as in like im not fully awake? The days pass to quickly lately that I just feel so spent sometimes... physically and mentally. Haiz.

I just find myself spaced out alot sometimes now... just can't really sit down and do something properly...

So heart-wrenching sometimes when you see a friend sad. Personally i'll just feel oh so saddened myself too. I guess thats what you get when your ur personal objective is simply the joy of everyone else around...

Waiting for the thief of hearts,

Wasted effort that'll be

as an empty void cannot be stolen

2009-11-13T21:16:00.001+08:00

Friday The 13th, and a Bunch Of Loose Ends

It is today, on the 13th Of November, Friday... that I can certainly declare a huge burden off my back... x) at last!!!

Finishing Gamers Meet 3 is certainly a stop-point right now. I have to stop, re-look at what I want to do now, instead of what i need to do.

A short list is in order I guess...

1. Get a guitar book like tim's -.- so I will be able to play SOMETHING instead of improvising with someone else.

2. Start taking the imitative and start DOING some assignments x.x if not I burden my classmates liaos omgss so guilty :( (cause i alrdy burdening them)

3 Practise, practise, practise... on my guitar :)

4. Start doing all the fun stuff that I couldnt fully enjoy with the burden on my head...stuff like watching anime, playing WoW xD

That's about it I think lolol my current wants! BUT I MUST REMEMBER TO

NOT SKIP/BE DAMN LATE FOR CLASS x.x

I just think I gotta get started on the sleep early regime =(

For the past two weeks, it has been an incredible time @ school. I wouldnt swap the past two weeks for anything =) Even though it has been an emotional blender for me, I think it will be an important memory and part of my life...

Screw-ups, achievements, getting high, skipping classes, getting pissed, moving computers, man-talks, nipple pinching distractions, lack of sleep, jam sessions and even suay suay Friday 13th...yeah thats what sums up the entire event.

But right now, hooray and yayee for myself for pulling through and I'm glad to say that i'm still alive =D

With the past behind, he strides out into the future...

2009-10-31T03:07:00.000+08:00

Just reached home. Dead tired. Heres wad i found at my window...

Yeah its a little bird... mom told me its been there for like the past 6 hours alrdy o.o!! slping i guess

And here's a little bear i found crushed between bags in the clubroom LOL

2009-10-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

Takin' It Easy

Heh so here i am in the clubroom... playing WoW, listening to the noisy ppl outside, and basically... just taking it VERY easy.

Heh its like the first time im able to be somewhat at ease for a loooong time. Haiz. Soon it will be over. Yayee!!!

Yeah awhile more Im gonna go to causeway point to catch a movie wif my secondary school pals. ^^

Alritez thats it. Im off soon...

All mixed up inside...

and we can never decide

if the words are right,

if its alright...

2009-10-29T01:36:00.002+08:00

The Walk

Yayee today was another "doing stuff for lan gaming" day LOLS

Anyways woke up at 8am, got on the train at like 9.30, went with leo to aljunied to get my prizes for the competition and then got bak in school like @ 12.40.

Heh. Make up lesson started at 12pm -.-

And... i went to clubroom first, packed up some stuff. Blah Blah Blah. It's so boring that I don't even remember -.-

Anyway went over to IS bonding day like @ 3.30 cause wunying ask me to go. Well it was pretty fun heh and i even got a little bit high there hehe

Oh man i swear im gonna post pictures here after my hp's bak -.-

Argh 8am lesson tml boo. Tata~

Am I able to decode?

A laugh or a smile.

Maybe a gesture and a nod...

Is is worth my while?

2009-10-27T00:41:00.000+08:00

RUSH

Suddenly it came

This unnatural high!

Pent-up energy with no aim

Makes you fly!

2009-10-26T00:34:00.004+08:00

PAST.

Eh. No new pics cause my phone not wif me -.- anyways i dug up some old stuff.

I like damn bored lar prolly in class xD

Woo 20 of that egg thingy damn i forgot its name

HF here LOL i forget when alrdy sia

Blur Del : D

HAHA PATAPON shield from my FOC

Urgh i better go bath and sleep soon... i nid to be up by 8am tml x.x Nitez!

The pretense of care
Behind it, was I?
To see how I fare
Wait...must I?

2009-10-25T02:16:00.011+08:00

Mixed...

Arh was a messy day today... went to dover to collect prizes for the LAN compy... den off to find liyana... and alvin's house for mahjong LOL

Ok larsss my day not liddat only lar -.- so sian. After alvin's hse since near admiralty i went off to sx & jt's hse cause rly veri long no see 'em. Heh same always they playing dota when i came z.z

Urgh im like so sick at the mention of dota lar...

Soon lar i think my life will be back to normal. Hmm. What is normal? LOL i seriously dun think life has been normal ever since poly life started! Hah!

Oh well. Waiting's the worse x.x come on, 3 more weeks.

Oh oh oh... and PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

NOKIA PLEASE FIX MY N97! x(

Anyways here's a cool song by velvet revolver :D I simply love how they sound on slower songs like these...the interesting lyrics are a plus!

2009-10-22T23:01:00.003+08:00

Alone...

It occurred to me suddenly. How... lonesome it can get sometimes...

Running around, getting things done... even though i spent most of my day around people... it still felt pretty lonesome. Haiz

It all feels so unreal sometimes... just like ur eyes are all clouded up.

But still... i know, i have to go on. =)

Don't you wanna go into the hollow?
Don't wanna go alone,
aren't you gonna follow?
Into the hollow...
Into the Hollow -
Queens of the Stone Age

2009-10-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

You Spin My Head...

OMG Lack of sleep + wearing new contacts = HEADSPIN x.x

Seriously i like dizzy now omg. Can't... do...shit ARGH!

Ritez... gonna sleep till im like completely satisfied tomorrow. Lets hope i rmb what i wanted to blog here xD

2009-10-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

Impossibility

Ah... we humans are such weird creatures. We always want the impossible.

Like me now wanting to load up pics here... but my handphone's under repair -.-.

Strange eh... we never treasure what we have until the last moment its gonna be gone from us...

In reality, we all know that we can't always have what we want. In fact, we dun rly nid anything... right?

Pride, greed, ego, curiosity, pleasure, jealousy. If you look carefully, arent these the very reasons for why we want something?

All of them, certainly can be seen in a 'bad' sort of way. As in all of them... could be part of a sin.

So is it a sin to want? To want something which we do not need to simply live on as a person?

But then you think... what if the want was for something not for yourself? The Greater Good? The person you love?

Heh wads wif me... i guess there's just no answer to that. Seriously i dun rly think there can be an answer to questions of morality of this sort.

But still then... I am still left wanting... wanting something that cannot be obtained. Just as everyone else is. =)

2009-10-18T00:42:00.003+08:00

THE HEAT

It's coming...

I have waited so long for this...

But at long last... in two weeks' time, my mettle will be tested.

Lets just hope i pull through... =)

Anyways, once again... i dunno what to say here -.-

Ok... i just ordered my contact lenses today! Probably will come by next thurs or wed :D I went to collect my N97 BUT they told me to come back in one to two weeks' time zzzzzz wads worse is they didnt even contact me about it beforehand -.- made me waste my time going down to causeway! I guess i gotta bring my K660i for the next week or so...

Went to play mahjong after tat... argh now i feel like i wasted the whole day LOL. After that went to eat mac! Altogether i saw del, shulin, huixuan, janielson, ericson and alvin today! YAYEE! Oh, i also saw phyllis when i went to admiralty to pass her my hard drive :)

I wonder how i would look with contacts sia! I can't wait for next week but at the same time i dread next week -.-

Ritez... off to print some stuff and wait for monday! Oh, im gonna go liyana hse tml! I still dunno bringing guitar or not cause i nid to bring computer switch to her hse siaa...

To feel is... normal
Normal however... these feelings ain't
Is it me or are they abnormal?
Reminder to self: I can't...
-Little lost soul in the game of life

2009-10-14T00:10:00.003+08:00

Tongue Tied!

Here's a great song... easy to play too!

Will I be like the person in the lyrics? Hmmm

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

2009-10-04T10:41:00.007+08:00

White.

I've decided not to be lazy and blog for once at least... heh i keep finding excuses not to...

Last week was LTC camp... haha ubin with all its mosquitoes LOL

Gonna go for another camp later this week, ICE camp.

Mmm...

This was the amount of food for LTC! x.x 3 Trolley fulls omg

A completely deserted Dover station...(ok i was bored)

A sign in ubin...and i think it looks cute LOL

Ahhh den now once again i dunno what to say here alrdy... i think i just dun have much to say -.-

I tot that a blog would let me spam whatever is in my heart here... but den i think my heart is just empty den... =(

Oh well whatever... here's a nice song I've managed to learn completely... heh

Everlong

Hello. I've waited here for you.
Everlong.
Tonight I throw myself into,
And out of the red, out of her head she sang.

Come down and waste away with me.
Down with me,
Slow how, you wanted it to be,
I'm over my head, out of her head she sang.

And I wonder when I sing along with you,
If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,
The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang:

Breathe out, so I can breathe you in,
Hold you in,
and now, I know you've always been.
Out of your head, out of my head I sing.

And I wonder when I sing along with you,
If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,
The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang:

And I wonder,
If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,
The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when...

2009-09-13T15:24:00.001+08:00

Blogger's still not letting me put in those pics... =.= nvm i go find some other stuff to do...

Guilt

2009-09-13T02:14:00.005+08:00

Guilt

Do you get the feeling sometimes? Yes, guilt...

Truth be told, i almost feel it everyday. Today was exceeding so -.-

Ben & Jerry, dammit! Your free ice-cream was a scam zzz...

At first huixuan ask me go wif her... den ask me jio more ppl lol and ended up it being a mass outing, with zhenli, hf, alvin, wan, serene, weiliang, wangting, leo as well.

Oh man imagine the reaction when the attraction of 'free ice-cream' @ marina barrage for some ben & jerry's chunk fest thingy was NOT TRUE...

There was a live band -.- but i think it sucks cause well no one was looking. And soon the band went off and speakers blasted music then.

Damn hot... like being roasted on a bbq except that the fire was above =.=

At least the trip wasnt ENTIRELY wasted... we went to an interesting exhibition at the barrage about the water reservoir in construction there.

Argh barrage was empty -.- except for a cafe and that exhibition.

So basically I led a bunch of people down to barrage for nothing -.- tat sucks. Seriously.

Went to watch Gamer afterwards... dunno why, but that film left a bad taste in my mouth (chocolate hagan dasz wasnt though) as it seems to show us humans in all forms of our sins and desires. Hmm... virtual paradise or hell? Good concept, bad story i think.

And den, on the way back... i spoiled zhenli's slippers (oops) and he had to wear wangting's new NUM slippers home.

No i do not step on ppl's footwear on purpose -.- i just dunno why i will accidentally do that sometimes/most of the time (depending on who eu are LOL)

Ok sorry to all whom i might have done something to inconvenience you or whatever. And a big thanks to all who helped out for the NSC thingummy. (I noe... i wasnt there... that's my greatest guilt burden of the day... haiz)

AND HERE'S WHERE I WANTED TO PUT PICS =.= im getting javascript:void(0); tml morning see if can put 'em up.

The fool wanted to please,
He thought... it was of ease
Alas, try as he might,
it was too much a fight
try to please all in sight,
soon he's forced to the light
-By The Fool

2009-08-28T01:23:00.002+08:00

Vacant

Empty, bare, drained, blank and cleared...

That would be what I feel mostly... but now...it not just in the mind but in...

MY SYSTEM

And no its not my computer i'm referring to -.- but my digestive system...

I seriously feel weird. I have never ever feel this way before...I mean like... sometimes I feel damn filled up and sometimes (like now) I'm so empty and flushed that I'm feeling the slight pain of the void inside.

Hmm... sounds abit like what goes on in the minds of plenty eh?
Anyways...

I must say, my virtual life is abit... dead. As in my almost dead facebook account, nearly un-used twitter (except for the plurk sending status messages over there) and even msn... perhaps I still cannot accept the functions and uses of these...benefits in our world... x.x

Haiz, I dun really noe wad to say now...ok ignore the below if you dislike fine writing LOL

It all started with the breeze.
Chilly one it was, ringing the chimes of wind.
It was the herald of the coming rain...

The flashes of light.
The boom of the heavens.
The rustle of the trees.

Slowly but surely, the skies cracked open.
Liquid, disregarded by many now, poured through.
Dropping from high above, to give life.

Gone are the eagerly waiting creatures below.
Gone are the soil to seep through.
Gone... are the liquid's importance.

Hide, within this concrete jungle.
Are those who never stopped wanting.
Hearing the dismal patter of water against pavement.

Avoid as we have in eons,
This abundant resource.
What is now a nuisance,
was once considered a gift.
-Thoughts of a pained person in void

Running?

2009-08-25T01:43:00.009+08:00

My Worst Enemy

Am I running? Away from him?

My very only worst enemy, the one that tells me to get into stuff that pressures me, tires me or even threaten the safe and peace.

That said, I am my own worst enemy.

Choices that I give myself, are always choices that are painfully hard to make. Tell myself that I need rest...
Tell myself that I cannot rest...

So what now? Where do we go...

Its no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy
Cuz every now and then I kick the living sh*t out of me
The smoke alarm is going off and theres a cigarette
Still burning
My Own Worst Enemy - Lit

2009-08-20T10:54:00.010+08:00

Morning Glory

What a feeling haha waking up at 10.30 in the morning, with nothing much to do. Playing my guitar... x)

If only every other day were like this... haiz... holidays are here but with them, comes the new burden.

Oh well im gonna rock till my mum comes home with lunch, then down to school to revise for friday's test with leooo.

Off to rock... x)

 I can't seem to face up to the facts
I'm tense and nervous and I can't relax
I can't sleep cause my bed's on fire
Don't touch me I'm a real live wire
Psycho Killer - Talking Heads

Fall To Pieces

2009-08-19T23:57:00.004+08:00

Fall To Pieces

Oh man, its so tiring.

We always do stuff to ourselves that we know is negative to ourselves. Even though we noe b4hand.

Overnighting in school every alternate day or so... it does ur body wondrously BAD.

What i noe of today is that I woek up at like 8+ to go bath and head for JSPG prac test...den...fog >.< Damn my brain is fogged up. Suddenly time is misplaced. Did i watch UP yesterday or today? omg messed up for a moment there...

Stuff seems floaty lately, i feel lighter (i dun seem so though) and there's like a weird veil over everything... I think im rly too tired hahahas

But it doesn't matter if i'm tired or not. The world still goes around and time is still ticking. Truly, i duno why i dun want to get some rest at this point now.

I really should go try to get some rest...

Is this the end?
There is no end
Tomorrow wakes and
You will end
the slumber of ends

2009-07-18T12:32:00.005+08:00

Another Damned Long Day

Hmm I dun really seem to remember what happened on thursday... apart from the fact that I went for only the last 15 mins of DSAL lesson, waited for mr ho for 30 minutes =.= and ended up that he ALREADY left the school zzz and..... hmm jenga in clubroom? LOL Then I went off home 1st cause HP no batt zzz.

Thursday Night, overnight, I was late for the last train to pasir ris. !!!

What could I do? Haiz taxi-ed to clementi ($7.50!!! midnite charges suck) den bought some food for do-re-mi who were overnighting with me.

Walked to SP... didn't noe why but I walked to the back gate which was gate 3... LOCKED =.= so I went to gate 1. It seems that the gate to SPGG is always open... hmm should I join tat next time after I graduate?

Anyways went in the school by gate 1. The security guard in the guard post didnt even see me -.-

You see weird stuff at night... one of the blocks next to finance building. The top floor lights were on, with a strangely blue glow... i THOUGHT i saw two figures standing there...I stood there for a moment... staring...

Went to T15 through the moberly area and field. Poly seems so different when theres like nobody there at all. So... peaceful and quiet...

Rather pleased with what I was able to do that night. Managed to watch two episodes of bleach, write a damned long email to dora, catch some sleep and hopefully teach a bit of java. AND best of all, the next morning I could see the wtf look of the NMA lecturer xD Well... it WAS the 1st time this term she sees me for that lesson : D

Went to clubroom with leo after that. SORRY i knew eu hungry i still fell asleep on the floor with the guitar =.=

Then went off to DEUI lecture @ MLT 11.

Then went off to JSPG interview. Haiz... just sometimes... i just dun like the way some things are done in this world =( just maybe, maybe can it be changed?

Went to GEMs with Han Feng. Found out that there wasn't a person called BURDEN in our class but the person name is BURTON -.- that time me and han feng keep thinking that the lecturer keep scolding us BURDEN cause the person nvr come den she keep calling after our names LOL den we shocked sia why she keep scold BURDEN!!!

Went off @ 1.30 liddat cause we GOT NOTHING TO PRESENT. NEXT WEEK WE MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST DO OUR PRESENTATION T_T. Okies. Go to clubroom, den go T19 pass serene DS. Put up banner. Went off to woodlands to eat with ALYSSA AND ADILAH =D sec sch days rocks man.

Rushed back. SRY SERENE ask eu help me so many things. Came abit late for my LAN meeting =( But good thing is I HAVE PEOPLE TO HELP ME NOW =)

Grabbed a few more helpers on the way to eat, acc zhenli take back hard drive and going home. =)

OH YES THE MOST WTF OMG BBQ THING THAT HAPPENED RECENTLY IS I FOUND MY HARD DRIVE AND THATS LIKE ONE MONTH LATER!!!!

At last... on the way home. Big bunch of us. We turned back at jurong east to acc cheryl take back handphone LOL. Finally. Then. I. Could. Go. Home.

omg slpt at like 12 DAMN early lars. And wake up at 12 LOLS I havent slpt so much in a long time already =D

As for today, FLASH FLASH AND MORE FLASH. Hahas. Gonna make some calls later and i gotta check my email inbox/inboxes now.

LATER~

btw...I must say... nothing lasts forever. Not even cold november rain...

2009-07-12T18:23:00.018+08:00

Fishy Weekend

Oh yes... went out to eat at Fish & Co. on Saturday... den went over to XJ's hse to celebrate peilin B'dae! Fun like Funfair siaaa...

Anyways I ate some fish & chips thingy there... same as jiehui.... foooood....

Argh feeling lazy to blog liaoz but still...

Lets get this part out of the way... the BORING 'this is my life' part of blogs =) alritez?
Ok so we went to xj's hse, i spammed photos like crazy, playing mahjong (sry for me being laggy at that) and... yeah ate xj's mom food woooo and go eat at the coffeeshop at serangoon there...

Pics of the day...

Pictures are NOT in order, I WILL UPLOAD THE REST TO FACEBOOK.

Thats that and so now...

Sometimes I try to lie to myself... I say to myself... get on ur feet, do ur stuff... but no... my mind goes straight down to hell and who knows wad else.

Its like... a sudden mind seizure? Suddenly I just feel that... I have to let it out.

Teenage Angst... ooo yeah tats what i'll use to describle myself right now... thats what im like having...?

Sometimes everything just feels screwed up. I just dunno what to feel. I just dunno what to do... and all the time, i'm just trying so damn hard to keep up with that face... yeah it seems fake but HEY LIKE YAR EVERYTHING'S FAKE.

There's nothing in this place, this world, between humans thats TOTALLY TRUE and HONEST.

Can I like use a little patience? I'm always blowing myself up with impatience and urgency... CAN I RELAX? Fuck i guess not.

I just really dunno wad to feel now. Arh forget it something's cropped up. I cut short my rant lars fark.

Shit this lars. 103 More Days. I'm just thinking of what's gonna happen... when it ends.

2009-07-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

Sense

Havent been saying much stuff thats logical or normal here lately... so im gonna just open blogger and see wad i have to say through the night!

@ 11.44PM:

Ok.... i just died in dota LOLS hahas very long nvr play with DMIT peeps le got leo, wl, jan, dehui wooo : D

@ 12.11PM:

Wahaha finish dota le now doing some club stuff helping wan : D

@ 12.54PM:

Still at it! Trying to find stuff to do hmmm i can't really say what im doing now lols its SECRET ;D

Dunno why... but i just feel like im in a dream right now... life was so different 2 years ago... haiz...

@ 1.12AM:

I dunno want to happy or to sian diao -.- got myself 15 coms for event BUT WHEN I NEEDED 20 -.- haizzz.

@ 1.38AM:

Dream Theater siol hahahas youtubed for them... just suddenly felt like listening to smt... that I can fall into and be held there...captivated...stuck in time, space and held in limbo... aww what am i saying -.-

@ 1.54AM:

Time for a bath... : D

@ 2.14AM:

Alritez im back... hmm what to do... what to do...

@ 3.31AM:

Going to my bedroom... sleep or not to sleep... haiz no rest for the wicked?
Well... haiz -.- wasted a bunch of my time

2009-07-01T02:10:00.002+08:00

Damning Myself

I told myself no.
No no no no no.
Never again.
But
W
T
F
is wrong with myself
I can't stop it
why?

Damn...

I KNOW I WILL HURT MYSELF BUT I JUST DUN EFFIN' GET IT! WHY AM I STILL ON THIS PATH

2009-06-30T02:02:00.005+08:00

Get a Grip, Man

The past few days... have been... like a dream... yeah.

Just that...

I dun seem to be myself... do I? Am I?

Question is, what IS myself?

Can a person's character be defined absolutely in that way?

If not, then... I seriously think that no one can really say that they know themselves well.

Life has always got it's share of ups & downs...

But am I just leading myself to the path of self-destruction... taking this path and way even though I know it could destroy myself?

Questions, questions...

When would we stop wanting to know?

Only when we are dead and gone and there's no one left to care for you and the memories you left? But then I think... all you have fought to know and find out... all that, they dont matter at all this way...it all just dont mean anything...anymore...

There was a bullet-shaped hole in the side of my head,
All I want is to reach inside and scrap out the pain...

2009-06-27T02:31:00.002+08:00

Dunno...

Mmm feeling weird...

What's wrong with myself? I dunno

Haiz

I just don't have the mood to do any work at all... I dunno why...

I am tired... just... so damn damn tired...

To be able to feel is what makes a human... but sometimes feeling is just so damned unbearable... just so damned hard to think properly as emotions just cloud you over... and you dont even know what you want......when actually...I ALREADY KNOW WHAT I WANT

2009-06-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

Are We The Waiting...?

Waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...

Is that all that I can seem to do? For it to find me instead of me taking the 1st step?

Where do we go now?? Argh

Anyways... how i wish that there could be more time in the world... haiz

I tell myself... there's so much to do... so many things to be done...

But as always... I cannot find what to do... and end up doing something completely different.

Oh well... lets just say... I can't make up my mind... = (

2009-06-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

Father's Day... YAYEE

Today was father's day!!! Wahaha went out together with the whole bunch of relatives in the morning to have lunch in some chinese ABALONE restuarant!

After that me + my 3 cousins went off to bukit timah plaza to play LAN LOLS we damn sian nthing to do marhsss

Den we go eat macdonalds at King Albert Park OMG 40 PIECE NUGGET xD I nvr take pic lolol

Went back to ah ma's house, den grabbed basketball go downstairs play with them. Wooo play play play till like 8.30 den we went back up.... dunno wads wrong with me, sit there watch TV until half den suddenly go slp LOLS

Woke up at 10.30 omg den go home liaox... tml go school! Den go MOVIE! Den my cousins come overnite wif me! Wahahahas damn packed larss but its alot better den sitting around being bored xD

Nothing to anyone.
Nothing to the world.
What have I done?
...

2009-06-21T02:10:00.002+08:00

Do I Really...

Not care anymore?
Feel nothing anymore?
Have the need to be alone?
Cannot desire more... anymore?

Questions have answers,
Answers, are not required
Solutions to Questions without answers?
Deep within, it can be aquired...

2009-06-15T07:15:00.002+08:00

This is a pretty sad song...

Covered by GunsN'Roses originally by Charles Manson...who's a pretty interesting person...

Look at your game, Girl

There's a time for living
Time keeps on flying
Think you're loving baby
But all your doing is crying

CHORUS:

Can you feel
Are those feelings real
Look at your game, girl
Look at your game, girl

What a mad delusion
Living in that confusion
Frustration and doubt
Can you ever live without the game

The sad, sad game
Mad game
Just to say loves' not enough
If it can't be true
Oh, you can tell those lies baby but you're only fooling you

CHORUS

Can you feel
I know those feelings ain't real
Then you better stop trying
Or you're gonna play crying
Stop trying
Or you're gonna play crying
Stop trying

That's the game
Sad sad game
Mad game
Sad game

--
"Look at Your Game, Girl" Copyright Guns N' Roses 1993
Copyright Charles Manson (1970, from the album entitled: Lie: The Love And Terror Cult)
From the album "The Spaghetti Incident" Released November 23rd 1993

2009-06-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

The Long Day

Tuesday is a damn long day.

I only rmb coming back to school at night... to do assignment.

But den i did a bunch at home alrdy.
So sit there.
Look at question 4 hours.
Play Wan DS.
Play Janielson msn
Play Wan Sims 3.
Talk a bunch of crap.
See a bunch of pictures.
Go to 7-11.
Sleep on bean bags.

Then, morning came.
Went to auditorium.
Helped out a bunch.
Rushed back to clubroom.
Grabbed stuffs and zhao.
Thanked Ikhwan for restringing guitars.
Reach Home.
Bath.
Rest less than 20mins.
Go Tajong Pagar.
Listen to some thingy.
Eat some buffet.
Went to Maxwell.
Eat peanut Ice Kachang.
Listen some crap.
Go home.
Hyper and suddenly sleep on MRT.
Woke up at marsiling.
Went off without saying bye.

Yar. That's how it was. Tuesday is freaking long. Except that its 5 mins to thursday already. Wow.

Sometimes no sense can be made of all this.
Sometimes I dunno wad to say
Sometimes I dunno wad to do
Sometimes I wish that I knew...

2009-06-05T01:44:00.003+08:00

Am I...

Whoa... what am I doing? Slacking off? Hmm ahh well at least I wont be going to bed feeling all tensed up today...

I...can't relax sometimes... I dunno why... haiz but den... oh well.

Crap. I always think of stuff to say here... but I ALWAYS turn up blank when I AM here -__-

Anyways I dun think I have much need to touch on poly life... xD Leo's blog got more stuff about me at school den me writing in here lors...

Anyways... off to... doing whatever I feel like now barhs... haix... which is... wad?

There was a time
when all was clear
There was a time
when nothing would blur
There was a time...
but now... there is fear

2009-05-31T23:41:00.002+08:00

Day Off?

Oh man... im too... UNRELAXED -_-

I was like 'yeah today's sunday so relax...'

So much for tat -_- blehsss... Everytime i do something mildly considered to be 'fun' I think of...

a: Assignment (Damned Java + Flash) -_-
b: Wth am I doing??? I should be doing WORK.....
c: What can I do that I have not been told to do??? (zzz to that...)

Strange huh? I cnt even relax on a day off.... zzz i end up feeling nervous about not doing much stuff -__-

Perhaps cause im cooped up at home in front of the computer? Well.... thats supposed to be RELAXING omg...

And now... i WANT to slp early but I CAN'T. No reason. WHY???

Arh I hate myself sometimes -_-

And i need to go down to Sim Lim square sometime this week for that new motherboard... or face the wrath of a UNSTABLE RIG omgsss...

Just in a blink...
You'll see the link
Between a plink...
And a plank (?)

Ok this one is stupid

2009-05-28T12:34:00.006+08:00

Sick. At Home. Zzzz.

Sucks to be sick. Feel damn sian and sick. zzz.

Well i guess then i can take a little break den... like now... i can blog! Finally!

zzz. But still feel horrible though... haiz....

Anyways, wheres my phone? I wanna get some pictures...

Btw, thanks to all who showed me concern... though it was greatly undeserved... :D

Yayee found my phone! Now...

Last week's Paintball Outing

Wan shitting LOLS

The masks damn cool lars

Group Photo! ^^

Hot action on the bus

WeiShan in his jumpsuit! LOLSS

There ya go! The paintball outing! Damn cool ritez??

Now here's a song that's damned cool. Actually by Black Sabbath but re-done by Guns N' Roses!

IT'S ALRIGHT

Told you once about your friends and neighbors
They were always seeking but they'll never find
That it's alright, yes it's alright

Where to go, Where to see
It's always been that way and it can never be
but it's alright, yes its alright

Give it all and ask for no return
And very soon you'll see and you'll begin to learn
that it's alright, yes it's alright

Don't you know that it's so good for you
You can be making love and see it all go through
But it's alright, 'cos it alright

So I told you once about your friends and neighbors
They were always seeking but they'll never find it
It's alright, 'cos it's alright

---
Guns N' Roses (Axl Rose) sang this song as a intro
to November Rain in the 1992 through 1993 tours.
Found in the concerts Tokyo 1992 , Paris 1992 and most
other concerts from 1992 and 1993 tours.

"IT'S ALRIGHT" (3:58) was originally recorded by BLACK SABBATH
in 1976 on the album called "TECHNICAL EXTASY"
(sung by Drummer Bill Ward)

It's raining outside now... I wonder what's going on in school... haiz...

Sometimes... when you rush around in your life... a sudden illness like this takes hold and stops you there right in your tracks... -_- Even though now... im still worrying about those things... the burdens lain upon me...my mind wants to accomplish things, but it tells me im not in the state to do them...

I still dunno if i can go down later... i dun wan a repeat of yesterday... falling aslp everywhr... haiz

"November Rain" suits me fine right now... it's a song btw if you dunno... by well, my favorite band...how i wish i could go walkin' in "The cold november rain" right now...

But i know... as well that "nothin' lasts forever"... even this state I am in now... but also the time we have now... the lives we lead now... so i gotta get over this ASAP and live this worthless life more fully than ever...

Alone in the cold
Shiver as you may
But you grow old,
Not a damn anybody gave...

2009-05-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

Felt like posting.... but then... AHH fark it -_-

2009-05-16T04:17:00.002+08:00

Why Did The Boy Throw The Watch Out Of The Window...

Oh noes... its doing that to us again.... Time... the entity which is around us... always with us... everywhere... and anywhere...

Oh... just makes you think... when 4 weeks just pass... like sand running through your fingers...

There is no will to get the sand back in your hands... but yet... there is always... the little sense of regret... and pain... of the fact that it has left your hands... never to return.

Haiz... there's nothing here but regret... regret that I couldnt do some things... the right way, regret tat I was unable to do certain stuff... and regret... that I have wasted my time...

Now this can't do! I tell myself... enjoy life while its here! Live it to the max... but what's worth living... if ya gotta do it...in such a miserable existance as just another mortal creature walking the earth?

And no... im not going crazy... not going to do some crazy stunt like try to 'elevate myself to status of god'.

I... no, WE humans are going to continue living and dying... all controlled by this... emotionless... and heartless creature...called time.

Brutal, it is... some would say... thats life... haiz... but then how would it be like to be immortal? Very boring I would think...not to mention painful...

What does it matter den? If time is going take us away in the end... why not just end it all in a blaze of glory? Just do the stuff you wanna do... and just let go?

That's practical thinking...but we are not so simple... it is our hearts that lead us along...lead us to feel the pain of leaving something behind... lead us to feel the fear of
losing something behind...

Our hearts are probably the most impractical thing that we have... why would such a thing that causes great horror and pain and sadness... be allowed to continue?
If all of us were practical... well den wouldnt that be a perfect world?

A perfect world... but wheres the fun in that?

2009-05-10T17:15:00.004+08:00

F.O.R SIA!

Bwahaha last Friday (8th May) was FOR! (Freshmen Orientation Reunion)... best part of it was the NIGHT-CYCLING
Our BBQ (Barbi - kill ^^) was at East Coast Park pit 24,25 C!

Around 11+ we started renting bikes in preparation to go on our LOOOONG journey to... CHANGI GENERAL HOSIPITAL : D

I havent cycle in a very long time liaox haha my butt still hurts... but it was... like freedom! Moving around at such a high speed makes eu feel... GREAT!

Actually, the cycling was a abit dangerous... i rmb cycling past like a meter from some ppl slping on the floor... from their heads >.< Anyways, the bikes were... okok... yeah except some bikes were... abit... haha lousy....

WEISHAN AND HF owe me 8 bucks each =)

Alritez... PICS!

SUPPER/BREAKFAST! :D

See this self-high girl here... always hungry -__-

Jie Hui + Alpha...No comments

Jan's LEGS BOTH CRAMP... we suck thumb sit on floor until...

...it started to rain... HEAVY even though we both keep say wont x.x

Me and jan... sucking thumbs while half-monty... we cycled thru the heavy rain after tat...

Even though it was tiring, the nite cycle was FUN! Eu don't get to cycle half-naked thru the rain in the dark everyday... do you? :D

2009-05-06T23:49:00.011+08:00

WALK...WALK...WALK

At last... some free time to detail what happened to me last wednesday(not today) oh yes, some might noe... the EUNOS trip to get my faulty video card checked up... more specifically, my trip to eunos avenue 4!

It really sucks to walk so much.... but ya cnt say i didnt see some interesting stuff =)

The trip started with me... going with david & johnson to eunos MRT (Johnson got off at bugis, david pei me till eunos ^^)...

Yeah, the handsome guy looking away is david

Anyways, he soon abandoned me at the MRT station, where i took a bus to Ubi Ave 2. Which seems SOOOO close to Ave 4 on the map...

On bus.... wait...

wait....

play PSP...

and wait...

till i got off one stop AFTER UBI AVE 2 -_-

ANDDDD.... after walking abit... decided to cam-whore a little...

I saw arrow ahead Avenue 4... and.... and i though would reach soon... but actually...

Look like condo but its NOT

Darm long wait at traffic light
Walk darm far den i see this... NIAS -_- i think i already wasted 45 mins walking liaox

Suddenly got big field O_O

Den opposite big field got construction WTH?!?@#

One way is Ave 4....

Spot the Ave 4 sign here :D (hint: enlarge pls) the previous Ave 4 sign was just to the right of this picture

I walked in all the way -___- found out the building i was after was behind me in this picture

Yeah... this one.

Inside damn nice... bought a can of chrysanthemum tea there :)

Didnt have the chance to take anymore pics :(
Went up to 4th floor and was led through a fire exit (??!) door to the faulty hardware section...

Wait there.... again -_-

Guy tells me to put my video card there... and that he would contact me again... oh well...

Went out, asked the gate guard for the nearest bus stop... and took a last picture...

Well, the vehicle carrying the container is smt like wad my dad drives :)

I rushed back for the FOP debrief... arrived 20 minutes late to find out that it WAS OVER -___-
Joined in with some gay caterpillar thingy they were doing lols

After that, went to watch 252 (the jap movie) wif HF, miao, wanyu and xueling...

THAT WAS LAST WEDNESDAY...

No, i dun rmb wad happened the last few days -_- damn boring... eunos trip was the highlight.

Alritez...thats it... i think

BUT TODAY...

WEBCAM WIF HANFENG SIA!!!! :DDDDD

2009-04-28T20:38:00.003+08:00

Another Tuesday...

Yes... another tuesday has come... and gone...

Tuesday is a special day for WoW players. It means you CAN'T play WoW due to maintenance...

Tuesday is a day when we get to go home early... but still aint so early after all...

Tuesday... is alot of things...

Haiz... and this tuesday is a day when I come to blog about what happened today... and end up talking this crap about tuesday...

Ok i just wasted a minute of your time... shoo!

You set out determined,
With your mind set on something...
Your plans get undermined
By events unlike anything

2009-04-26T02:05:00.003+08:00

Omggg

Alritez... damn the video card distributor... its at freaking UBI... EUNOS! -__-

Of course, if my old Geforce 8800 GTS 512 didnt cost me $549 I think it would have just been thrown away and i'll get a replacement... currently my desktop has a Geforce 9500 GT... which well... yeah it sucks.

Anyways... I got to find a day to go down to eunos... sian omg. Probably Wednesday I will go barhs... cause lesson ends at 12... Oh fk. Cnt. Got FOP DEBRIEFING... =_-

Oh well...must... find... time >.< haiz.

Flag day... This is the only pic wif (i think) almost everyone in it... :D

Weirdness

2009-04-22T00:09:00.004+08:00

Damn weird...

Haix... this is dumb... when I got tons of stuff to blog about... i dun blog... but when there isnt much... i suddenly have the time to come here and type -_- RIDICULOUS

Hmm lets see what I have wanted to post for like the last few weeks... (what i can remember at least)

1. ...Camp's over... hmm i think i said smt about that before... what else...

2. Empty feeling I have... hmm wait, have I said smt about that alrdy? Darm...

3. Pictures... I have 1K pics in my HP now... and i havent taken them out for uhh... viewing... so here are a few below barhs.

UHH... dun ask...

Whaha.. the cute guy and one trying to act cute

Free show!!!

Damn happening siol here even hotter action

Leo's drawing... GOOD JOB! EU SHOULD BE IN DDM

Self-Explanatory lols

Alritez... lets see... what has happened to me...

Yesterday was... supposed to be a normal day.

Normal day. Normal School Day.

But no... i have... this weird feeling... smt like... a little bit of dissatisfaction? ... I dunno wif wad... i just dunno myself...

Anyways... its gd cause most modules now dun have written tests... just how like i like it... cause i have never felt that writing for programming was of any use... and hands-on would be much better...

Hmm... tml starts at 8... oh boy...

I think i will come at 9 ahaha...

What to do... what to do... haix...

I just.... dunno...

Looked in the mirror
One of Man's great fears...
In my eyes... as I looked nearer,
mist in them refused to clear
and was only the unknown...

ALRITEZ!!!

2009-04-10T12:37:00.002+08:00

FOC IS OVER!!!

At long last, the day has arrived...

Today, is the day after so many weeks... where i can...

i can...

SLACK AT HOME!

WOOOHOOOOO

Hmm but seriously...

Now after the camp, there seems to be a void in my mind... about what to do...

Now lets see... what i can do for today...

I need to write an email to PointOfView graphics about my Geforce 8800GTS...

I need my guitar practice...

I need to watch bleach!

I need to go down wif del or daniel to get WoW....yayee!

Hmm... its weird... this feeling... now that the burden is gone... like there is... nothing for me now...

Oh well... or it could be smt else... i dunno myself... haiz -_- human nature

Again...

2009-03-22T23:39:00.001+08:00

Seriously... im busy oh noes... =( no time to blog larsss

Have a picture though! :D

BUZZZZZZZY

2009-03-18T02:28:00.000+08:00

Nthing to say. Busy nias -_-

I feel messed up.
Someone... please
Reach inside and scrape out the pain...

2009-03-10T02:46:00.001+08:00

Woots~

Im in school now doing FOC stuff : D

I dunno wad to say barhs for now haha off to do work liaoz

Nonono no oh no~
You don't want to know oh oh oh oh~
Just to tell me no oh oh oh oh~
Do you want to know...?

2009-03-08T03:36:00.006+08:00

Busy Days Ahead

Right... now it's 3.30+ am and i've just finished a game of dota lols... i bathed at 3 am haha and feel so awake now : D

Ooo... The Reason... nice song... it's playing now on my computer lols...

Hmm... seriously... there are many things to say... but i dunno if i can say them...

I just dunno how to say...

Is this all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
you left behind...?

Skidrow's... Wasted Time. And like it asks...can I live on with myself?

Wahahaha...I will never know till i try ritez? As long as i dun get hooked on Mr. Brownstone (The song has me hooked already)

Mr. Brownstone

I get up around seven
Get outta bed around nine
And I don't worry about nothin' no
Cause worryin's a waste of my...time

The show usually starts around seven
We go on stage around nine
Get on the bus about eleven
Sippin' a drink and feelin' fine

Chorus:

We been dancin' with
Mr. Brownstone
He's been knockin'
He won't leave me alone

I used ta do a little
but a little wouldn't do
So the little got more and more
I just keep tryin'
ta get a little better
Said a little better than before
I used ta do a little
but a little wouldn't do
So the little got more and more
I just keep tryin'
ta get a little better
Said a little better than before

Chorus

Now I get up around whenever
I used ta get up on time
But that old man
he's a real muthafucker
Gonna kick him on down the line

And the last part...

"Stuck it in the middle,
And I shot it in the middle,
And it... drove me outta my mind
I should've known better,
Said, I wish I never met her,
Said, I leave it all behind
Yowsa!"

Guns & Roses... =D Abit crazy but thats just the way things are...

2009-03-07T04:17:00.002+08:00

Numb

You don't feel anything... you don't see anything... you don't even need anything...

Numbness... is it good? Or is it simply the temporary disablement of yourself... such that you cannot know if you are being eat up... from the inside... slowly, but surely...

Self-Denial...numbing yourself to facts of life...

But... is that it? Or is there... something more?

I used to love her...
but I had to kill her...
She didn't say much...
She drove me nuts...
But am I happier this way...?

-Edited from Guns & Roses... I used to love her

2009-03-04T22:08:00.004+08:00

Observation Day!!

Muahaha today was a day of observation for me as i came to school to mainly spectate the fun our freshmen camp group leaders were having at their training...

Walked around the school wif stanley also to SAA and his lunch...

Den hide behind Ikwan's lappy as the GLs continued their training... which was quite funny actually... I rly think they had fun barh for today...

After that we went off to the nearby Clementi hawker to eat.... Nasi Lemak -_- nthing else was appealing to me... and western food is UNHEALTHY =( I dun wanna eat again...

Went back to the classroom and played monster hunter with leo... today han feng dun have psp =( damn sad can tml he will bring le : D

Den take train home lors thats about it...

Zhenli's B'dae Cake : D
Ericsson @ Sentosa
Dunno why got his pic
Self-Explanatory
They all... dunno doing wad to wan

2009-03-02T01:12:00.002+08:00

Flyer Day

Today go and work for stanley uhh i mean starhub go give flyer... i come late den veri dumb and blur ppl ask me get in car i still blur stun there -_-

Anyways.... after tat for 12 to 6....

FlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyer
FlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerTHANKYOU!FlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyerFlyer

ok... after tat went wif parents to the Hereen downstairs the japanese restaurant 'Shokuko" to eat... omg we eat ALOT

I went wif dad bak to his primemover and took a nap...

Now i come home play dota lols... hmm tat basically sums up today for me :D

Veri no life siol -_-

Life and death,
Black and white,
Yin and Yang...
Love and hate...

2009-02-27T12:58:00.002+08:00

Yayee! Free day~

Damn long since i had a free day at home so i'm GONNA SLACK THE DAY OFF : D

Damn long since i blogged too... so I'M BLOGGING NOW!

Ok... i seriously cnt rmb much of what happened the past few days... except that yesterday had meeting at school...

Hmm... I think many people have that weird feeling now... that of nothing to do... cause during the exams you feel like there are loads of stuff eu wana go do... but now... haha eu dun feel like doing them at all... we humans are WEIRD....

Ok anyways off to enjoy the rest of the day~

2009-02-21T03:12:00.003+08:00

Still of the night...

It's... rly damn quiet at night... the silence... is deafening...

Oh well that's a description used in a book... hmmm i forgot which...

Anyways... it's good to sometimes... sit down... and be silent... think about... things that have happened... that are happening... and those that are about to...

Like... for instance... the lack of doing much for the maths test yesterday... not much preparation... we went to school to study but ended up playing there... hmm...

Would have anything changed? Haiz... except for a grade in my record... thats all... right? It's not like it'll prevent my ability to be happy... ritez?

Messed around with netbeans for java today... learned anything? Not much... except that written tests for programming laanguages are once again... useless... what would it matter if you DO forget how to apply a method in future? Searching on the web yields results anyways -_-

Anyways... thats not the important part... what's important is... what im gonna do tml.... turns out tml is a blank day again... perhaps finish up the program i half-started... perhaps not... haiz...

Oh... who am I to complain... at least the life i have now is... seriously the time of my life. I doubt there would be any other point in a lifetime that you can just sit back and take it easy like we do now... to the extend... that it gets boring... and you feel the need... for something more

Greed... that's what it is... two or three years back i would have said my present life is what i want... well now that im here... disgruntlement and unsatisfaction sets in...

Time flies... one year is almost gone... and... im happy... im i not?

Two really random pictures

V'tine's Day

2009-02-15T23:16:00.009+08:00

V'tine's DAY!!!

On V'tines day I went out wif leo and jan to simlim square to buy jan's headphones... i reach like 3.45 omg i make them wait.... den we go simlim walk walk walk.... yes arh no couples at simlim de YES ARH

Den we go out of simlim...cross a road... make a turn... talk talk talk.... cross another road... and... came back to simlim... O_O BY ACCIDENT ZOMG WTFS FTW BBQSSS -_- veri gg.... den we walk bak to mrt... walk walk walk... eh? parklane liaoz -_- den we walk to dhouby ghaut mrt lorsss...

Went to takashimaya... walk walk walk... den we see far east shopping... and... HEY taka's not that way -_- ZzzzZzzZZZz so we have to squeeze bak thru all the couples go bak the way we came... OMG 2nd time misdirection ~_~

We go up taka... 4th floor... search search search and.... YES seoul garden is not at 4th is at 5th.... WALAOS...

Actually we also got walk wrong a few other places that day.... few times in simlim (tat one not our fault is simlim's design prob) ...at orchard (ok fine... the V'tine day aura clouding our direction) and at taka..... (Z_z)

ANYWAYS WE GO BREEKS EAT!!!!

SINGLES FEAST FOR THAT DAY WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!

Edwin + Johnson

Leo + Jie Hui

Jan playing around wif his cam

Hui Xuan + Wunying

Leo + Sleeping Alpha

After that took bus bak wif liyana bukit batok int. got pass dover MRT siol O_O.

PSP on bus ~_~

Leo... =O

Useless

2009-02-13T14:01:00.000+08:00

Useless...

Seriously... i feel like i cnt do anything... i feel weak... haiz... am i ill or am i just imagining it?
Perhaps i am lying to myself...?
Or perhaps i just dunno wad to do...

2009-02-12T02:55:00.000+08:00

Wanted to post smt... but i 4got... nvm

2009-02-11T01:38:00.003+08:00

PICS!!!

Weishan wif bean bag lol

Leo carry zhenli =O

HF wif scarf

Nick wif ~~balls~~ oranges on shoulder

Leo cute face

DO RE MI

Edwin sia...
He looks thirsty...

2009-02-10T02:49:00.002+08:00

Monday Bluez

Ok lar not rly a sian monday but more like a... veri weird monday... go gym in morning, go till 3.30... go class abit late... listen java teacher tok tok tok tok tok -_-

After that go makan wif leo, edwin, huixuan, liyana, wunying @ IMM... pepper lunch ahaha...

Go the roof there play sia... got water play ground we dunno until a little kid go press... lols lucky we not in the playground when he pressed it... took some pics... will post again... =)

Haiz... sometimes... life just isnt fair huh? Always... there is something out of our reach... something... we cnt get... and now im not toking just for myself... but for everyone.

I see disatisfaction... everybody around me at least... there is always at least a particular object of desire that is not obtainable...

Maybe... maybe... we humans arent meant to be... with our wants and desires... spoiling all that is around us... maybe... we should just all perish...

But we cant... we all hold to much too something here... all of us have the will... to live on...

Even if we don't get what we want... we still live on...

I can't think up of a rhyme...
much less even a hymn.
But i'll still mime,
If you'll gimme a dime!