Get a Grip, Man

The past few days... have been... like a dream... yeah.

Just that...

I dun seem to be myself... do I? Am I?

Question is, what IS myself?

Can a person's character be defined absolutely in that way?

If not, then... I seriously think that no one can really say that they know themselves well.

Life has always got it's share of ups & downs...

But am I just leading myself to the path of self-destruction... taking this path and way even though I know it could destroy myself?

Questions, questions...

When would we stop wanting to know?

Only when we are dead and gone and there's no one left to care for you and the memories you left? But then I think... all you have fought to know and find out... all that, they dont matter at all this way...it all just dont mean anything...anymore...

There was a bullet-shaped hole in the side of my head,
All I want is to reach inside and scrap out the pain...

Dunno...

Mmm feeling weird...

What's wrong with myself? I dunno

Haiz

I just don't have the mood to do any work at all... I dunno why...

I am tired... just... so damn damn tired...

To be able to feel is what makes a human... but sometimes feeling is just so damned unbearable... just so damned hard to think properly as emotions just cloud you over... and you dont even know what you want......when actually...I ALREADY KNOW WHAT I WANT

Are We The Waiting...?

Waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...

Is that all that I can seem to do? For it to find me instead of me taking the 1st step?

Where do we go now?? Argh

Anyways... how i wish that there could be more time in the world... haiz

I tell myself... there's so much to do... so many things to be done...

But as always... I cannot find what to do... and end up doing something completely different.

Oh well... lets just say... I can't make up my mind... = (

Father's Day... YAYEE

Today was father's day!!! Wahaha went out together with the whole bunch of relatives in the morning to have lunch in some chinese ABALONE restuarant!

After that me + my 3 cousins went off to bukit timah plaza to play LAN LOLS we damn sian nthing to do marhsss

Den we go eat macdonalds at King Albert Park OMG 40 PIECE NUGGET xD I nvr take pic lolol

Went back to ah ma's house, den grabbed basketball go downstairs play with them. Wooo play play play till like 8.30 den we went back up.... dunno wads wrong with me, sit there watch TV until half den suddenly go slp LOLS

Woke up at 10.30 omg den go home liaox... tml go school! Den go MOVIE! Den my cousins come overnite wif me! Wahahahas damn packed larss but its alot better den sitting around being bored xD

Nothing to anyone.
Nothing to the world.
What have I done?
...

Do I Really...

Not care anymore?
Feel nothing anymore?
Have the need to be alone?
Cannot desire more... anymore?

Questions have answers,
Answers, are not required
Solutions to Questions without answers?
Deep within, it can be aquired...

This is a pretty sad song...

Covered by GunsN'Roses originally by Charles Manson...who's a pretty interesting person...

Look at your game, Girl

There's a time for living
Time keeps on flying
Think you're loving baby
But all your doing is crying

CHORUS:

Can you feel
Are those feelings real
Look at your game, girl
Look at your game, girl

What a mad delusion
Living in that confusion
Frustration and doubt
Can you ever live without the game

The sad, sad game
Mad game
Just to say loves' not enough
If it can't be true
Oh, you can tell those lies baby but you're only fooling you

CHORUS

Can you feel
I know those feelings ain't real
Then you better stop trying
Or you're gonna play crying
Stop trying
Or you're gonna play crying
Stop trying

That's the game
Sad sad game
Mad game
Sad game

--
"Look at Your Game, Girl" Copyright Guns N' Roses 1993
Copyright Charles Manson (1970, from the album entitled: Lie: The Love And Terror Cult)
From the album "The Spaghetti Incident" Released November 23rd 1993

The Long Day

Tuesday is a damn long day.

I only rmb coming back to school at night... to do assignment.

But den i did a bunch at home alrdy.
So sit there.
Look at question 4 hours.
Play Wan DS.
Play Janielson msn
Play Wan Sims 3.
Talk a bunch of crap.
See a bunch of pictures.
Go to 7-11.
Sleep on bean bags.

Then, morning came.
Went to auditorium.
Helped out a bunch.
Rushed back to clubroom.
Grabbed stuffs and zhao.
Thanked Ikhwan for restringing guitars.
Reach Home.
Bath.
Rest less than 20mins.
Go Tajong Pagar.
Listen to some thingy.
Eat some buffet.
Went to Maxwell.
Eat peanut Ice Kachang.
Listen some crap.
Go home.
Hyper and suddenly sleep on MRT.
Woke up at marsiling.
Went off without saying bye.

Yar. That's how it was. Tuesday is freaking long. Except that its 5 mins to thursday already. Wow.

Sometimes no sense can be made of all this.
Sometimes I dunno wad to say
Sometimes I dunno wad to do
Sometimes I wish that I knew...

Am I...

Whoa... what am I doing? Slacking off? Hmm ahh well at least I wont be going to bed feeling all tensed up today...

I...can't relax sometimes... I dunno why... haiz but den... oh well.

Crap. I always think of stuff to say here... but I ALWAYS turn up blank when I AM here -__-

Anyways I dun think I have much need to touch on poly life... xD Leo's blog got more stuff about me at school den me writing in here lors...

Anyways... off to... doing whatever I feel like now barhs... haix... which is... wad?

There was a time
when all was clear
There was a time
when nothing would blur
There was a time...
but now... there is fear