Tongue Tied!

Here's a great song... easy to play too!

Will I be like the person in the lyrics? Hmmm

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

White.

I've decided not to be lazy and blog for once at least... heh i keep finding excuses not to...

Last week was LTC camp... haha ubin with all its mosquitoes LOL

Gonna go for another camp later this week, ICE camp.

Mmm...

This was the amount of food for LTC! x.x 3 Trolley fulls omg

A completely deserted Dover station...(ok i was bored)

A sign in ubin...and i think it looks cute LOL

Ahhh den now once again i dunno what to say here alrdy... i think i just dun have much to say -.-

I tot that a blog would let me spam whatever is in my heart here... but den i think my heart is just empty den... =(

Oh well whatever... here's a nice song I've managed to learn completely... heh

Everlong

Hello. I've waited here for you.
Everlong.
Tonight I throw myself into,
And out of the red, out of her head she sang.

Come down and waste away with me.
Down with me,
Slow how, you wanted it to be,
I'm over my head, out of her head she sang.

And I wonder when I sing along with you,
If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,
The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang:

Breathe out, so I can breathe you in,
Hold you in,
and now, I know you've always been.
Out of your head, out of my head I sing.

And I wonder when I sing along with you,
If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,
The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang:

And I wonder,
If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,
The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when...

Blogger's still not letting me put in those pics... =.= nvm i go find some other stuff to do...

Guilt

Guilt

Do you get the feeling sometimes? Yes, guilt...

Truth be told, i almost feel it everyday. Today was exceeding so -.-

Ben & Jerry, dammit! Your free ice-cream was a scam zzz...

At first huixuan ask me go wif her... den ask me jio more ppl lol and ended up it being a mass outing, with zhenli, hf, alvin, wan, serene, weiliang, wangting, leo as well.

Oh man imagine the reaction when the attraction of 'free ice-cream' @ marina barrage for some ben & jerry's chunk fest thingy was NOT TRUE...

There was a live band -.- but i think it sucks cause well no one was looking. And soon the band went off and speakers blasted music then.

Damn hot... like being roasted on a bbq except that the fire was above =.=

At least the trip wasnt ENTIRELY wasted... we went to an interesting exhibition at the barrage about the water reservoir in construction there.

Argh barrage was empty -.- except for a cafe and that exhibition.

So basically I led a bunch of people down to barrage for nothing -.- tat sucks. Seriously.

Went to watch Gamer afterwards... dunno why, but that film left a bad taste in my mouth (chocolate hagan dasz wasnt though) as it seems to show us humans in all forms of our sins and desires. Hmm... virtual paradise or hell? Good concept, bad story i think.

And den, on the way back... i spoiled zhenli's slippers (oops) and he had to wear wangting's new NUM slippers home.

No i do not step on ppl's footwear on purpose -.- i just dunno why i will accidentally do that sometimes/most of the time (depending on who eu are LOL)

Ok sorry to all whom i might have done something to inconvenience you or whatever. And a big thanks to all who helped out for the NSC thingummy. (I noe... i wasnt there... that's my greatest guilt burden of the day... haiz)

AND HERE'S WHERE I WANTED TO PUT PICS =.= im getting javascript:void(0); tml morning see if can put 'em up.

The fool wanted to please,
He thought... it was of ease
Alas, try as he might,
it was too much a fight
try to please all in sight,
soon he's forced to the light
-By The Fool

Vacant

Empty, bare, drained, blank and cleared...

That would be what I feel mostly... but now...it not just in the mind but in...

MY SYSTEM

And no its not my computer i'm referring to -.- but my digestive system...

I seriously feel weird. I have never ever feel this way before...I mean like... sometimes I feel damn filled up and sometimes (like now) I'm so empty and flushed that I'm feeling the slight pain of the void inside.

Hmm... sounds abit like what goes on in the minds of plenty eh?
Anyways...

I must say, my virtual life is abit... dead. As in my almost dead facebook account, nearly un-used twitter (except for the plurk sending status messages over there) and even msn... perhaps I still cannot accept the functions and uses of these...benefits in our world... x.x

Haiz, I dun really noe wad to say now...ok ignore the below if you dislike fine writing LOL


It all started with the breeze.
Chilly one it was, ringing the chimes of wind.
It was the herald of the coming rain...

The flashes of light.
The boom of the heavens.
The rustle of the trees.

Slowly but surely, the skies cracked open.
Liquid, disregarded by many now, poured through.
Dropping from high above, to give life.

Gone are the eagerly waiting creatures below.
Gone are the soil to seep through.
Gone... are the liquid's importance.

Hide, within this concrete jungle.
Are those who never stopped wanting.
Hearing the dismal patter of water against pavement.

Avoid as we have in eons,
This abundant resource.
What is now a nuisance,
was once considered a gift.
-Thoughts of a pained person in void

Running?

My Worst Enemy

Am I running? Away from him?

My very only worst enemy, the one that tells me to get into stuff that pressures me, tires me or even threaten the safe and peace.

That said, I am my own worst enemy.

Choices that I give myself, are always choices that are painfully hard to make. Tell myself that I need rest...
Tell myself that I cannot rest...

So what now? Where do we go...

Its no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy
Cuz every now and then I kick the living sh*t out of me
The smoke alarm is going off and theres a cigarette
Still burning
My Own Worst Enemy - Lit

Morning Glory

What a feeling haha waking up at 10.30 in the morning, with nothing much to do. Playing my guitar... x)

If only every other day were like this... haiz... holidays are here but with them, comes the new burden.

Oh well im gonna rock till my mum comes home with lunch, then down to school to revise for friday's test with leooo.

Off to rock... x)

 I can't seem to face up to the facts
I'm tense and nervous and I can't relax
I can't sleep cause my bed's on fire
Don't touch me I'm a real live wire
Psycho Killer - Talking Heads

Fall To Pieces

Fall To Pieces

Oh man, its so tiring.

We always do stuff to ourselves that we know is negative to ourselves. Even though we noe b4hand.

Overnighting in school every alternate day or so... it does ur body wondrously BAD.

What i noe of today is that I woek up at like 8+ to go bath and head for JSPG prac test...den...fog >.< Damn my brain is fogged up. Suddenly time is misplaced. Did i watch UP yesterday or today? omg messed up for a moment there...

Stuff seems floaty lately, i feel lighter (i dun seem so though) and there's like a weird veil over everything... I think im rly too tired hahahas

But it doesn't matter if i'm tired or not. The world still goes around and time is still ticking. Truly, i duno why i dun want to get some rest at this point now.

I really should go try to get some rest...


Is this the end?
There is no end
Tomorrow wakes and
You will end
the slumber of ends

Another Damned Long Day

Hmm I dun really seem to remember what happened on thursday... apart from the fact that I went for only the last 15 mins of DSAL lesson, waited for mr ho for 30 minutes =.= and ended up that he ALREADY left the school zzz and..... hmm jenga in clubroom? LOL Then I went off home 1st cause HP no batt zzz.

Thursday Night, overnight, I was late for the last train to pasir ris. !!!

What could I do? Haiz taxi-ed to clementi ($7.50!!! midnite charges suck) den bought some food for do-re-mi who were overnighting with me.

Walked to SP... didn't noe why but I walked to the back gate which was gate 3... LOCKED =.= so I went to gate 1. It seems that the gate to SPGG is always open... hmm should I join tat next time after I graduate?

Anyways went in the school by gate 1. The security guard in the guard post didnt even see me -.-

You see weird stuff at night... one of the blocks next to finance building. The top floor lights were on, with a strangely blue glow... i THOUGHT i saw two figures standing there...I stood there for a moment... staring...

Went to T15 through the moberly area and field. Poly seems so different when theres like nobody there at all. So... peaceful and quiet...

Rather pleased with what I was able to do that night. Managed to watch two episodes of bleach, write a damned long email to dora, catch some sleep and hopefully teach a bit of java. AND best of all, the next morning I could see the wtf look of the NMA lecturer xD Well... it WAS the 1st time this term she sees me for that lesson : D

Went to clubroom with leo after that. SORRY i knew eu hungry i still fell asleep on the floor with the guitar =.=

Then went off to DEUI lecture @ MLT 11.

Then went off to JSPG interview. Haiz... just sometimes... i just dun like the way some things are done in this world =( just maybe, maybe can it be changed?

Went to GEMs with Han Feng. Found out that there wasn't a person called BURDEN in our class but the person name is BURTON -.- that time me and han feng keep thinking that the lecturer keep scolding us BURDEN cause the person nvr come den she keep calling after our names LOL den we shocked sia why she keep scold BURDEN!!!

Went off @ 1.30 liddat cause we GOT NOTHING TO PRESENT. NEXT WEEK WE MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST DO OUR PRESENTATION T_T. Okies. Go to clubroom, den go T19 pass serene DS. Put up banner. Went off to woodlands to eat with ALYSSA AND ADILAH =D sec sch days rocks man.

Rushed back. SRY SERENE ask eu help me so many things. Came abit late for my LAN meeting =( But good thing is I HAVE PEOPLE TO HELP ME NOW =)

Grabbed a few more helpers on the way to eat, acc zhenli take back hard drive and going home. =)

OH YES THE MOST WTF OMG BBQ THING THAT HAPPENED RECENTLY IS I FOUND MY HARD DRIVE AND THATS LIKE ONE MONTH LATER!!!!

At last... on the way home. Big bunch of us. We turned back at jurong east to acc cheryl take back handphone LOL. Finally. Then. I. Could. Go. Home.

omg slpt at like 12 DAMN early lars. And wake up at 12 LOLS I havent slpt so much in a long time already =D

As for today, FLASH FLASH AND MORE FLASH. Hahas. Gonna make some calls later and i gotta check my email inbox/inboxes now.

LATER~

btw...I must say... nothing lasts forever. Not even cold november rain...

Fishy Weekend

Oh yes... went out to eat at Fish & Co. on Saturday... den went over to XJ's hse to celebrate peilin B'dae! Fun like Funfair siaaa...

Anyways I ate some fish & chips thingy there... same as jiehui.... foooood....

Argh feeling lazy to blog liaoz but still...

Lets get this part out of the way... the BORING 'this is my life' part of blogs =) alritez?
Ok so we went to xj's hse, i spammed photos like crazy, playing mahjong (sry for me being laggy at that) and... yeah ate xj's mom food woooo and go eat at the coffeeshop at serangoon there...

Pics of the day...






Pictures are NOT in order, I WILL UPLOAD THE REST TO FACEBOOK.

Thats that and so now...

Sometimes I try to lie to myself... I say to myself... get on ur feet, do ur stuff... but no... my mind goes straight down to hell and who knows wad else.

Its like... a sudden mind seizure? Suddenly I just feel that... I have to let it out.

Teenage Angst... ooo yeah tats what i'll use to describle myself right now... thats what im like having...?

Sometimes everything just feels screwed up. I just dunno what to feel. I just dunno what to do... and all the time, i'm just trying so damn hard to keep up with that face... yeah it seems fake but HEY LIKE YAR EVERYTHING'S FAKE.

There's nothing in this place, this world, between humans thats TOTALLY TRUE and HONEST.

Can I like use a little patience? I'm always blowing myself up with impatience and urgency... CAN I RELAX? Fuck i guess not.

I just really dunno wad to feel now. Arh forget it something's cropped up. I cut short my rant lars fark.

Shit this lars. 103 More Days. I'm just thinking of what's gonna happen... when it ends.