Saturday, July 18, 2009

Another Damned Long Day

Hmm I dun really seem to remember what happened on thursday... apart from the fact that I went for only the last 15 mins of DSAL lesson, waited for mr ho for 30 minutes =.= and ended up that he ALREADY left the school zzz and..... hmm jenga in clubroom? LOL Then I went off home 1st cause HP no batt zzz.

Thursday Night, overnight, I was late for the last train to pasir ris. !!!

What could I do? Haiz taxi-ed to clementi ($7.50!!! midnite charges suck) den bought some food for do-re-mi who were overnighting with me.

Walked to SP... didn't noe why but I walked to the back gate which was gate 3... LOCKED =.= so I went to gate 1. It seems that the gate to SPGG is always open... hmm should I join tat next time after I graduate?

Anyways went in the school by gate 1. The security guard in the guard post didnt even see me -.-

You see weird stuff at night... one of the blocks next to finance building. The top floor lights were on, with a strangely blue glow... i THOUGHT i saw two figures standing there...I stood there for a moment... staring...

Went to T15 through the moberly area and field. Poly seems so different when theres like nobody there at all. So... peaceful and quiet...

Rather pleased with what I was able to do that night. Managed to watch two episodes of bleach, write a damned long email to dora, catch some sleep and hopefully teach a bit of java. AND best of all, the next morning I could see the wtf look of the NMA lecturer xD Well... it WAS the 1st time this term she sees me for that lesson : D

Went to clubroom with leo after that. SORRY i knew eu hungry i still fell asleep on the floor with the guitar =.=

Then went off to DEUI lecture @ MLT 11.

Then went off to JSPG interview. Haiz... just sometimes... i just dun like the way some things are done in this world =( just maybe, maybe can it be changed?

Went to GEMs with Han Feng. Found out that there wasn't a person called BURDEN in our class but the person name is BURTON -.- that time me and han feng keep thinking that the lecturer keep scolding us BURDEN cause the person nvr come den she keep calling after our names LOL den we shocked sia why she keep scold
BURDEN!!!

Went off @ 1.30 liddat cause we GOT NOTHING TO PRESENT. NEXT WEEK WE MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST DO OUR PRESENTATION T_T. Okies. Go to clubroom, den go T19 pass serene DS. Put up banner. Went off to woodlands to eat with ALYSSA AND ADILAH =D sec sch days rocks man.

Rushed back. SRY SERENE ask eu help me so many things. Came abit late for my LAN meeting =( But good thing is I HAVE PEOPLE TO HELP ME NOW =)

Grabbed a few more helpers on the way to eat, acc zhenli take back hard drive and going home. =)

OH YES THE MOST WTF OMG BBQ THING THAT HAPPENED RECENTLY IS I FOUND MY HARD DRIVE AND THATS LIKE ONE MONTH LATER!!!!

At last... on the way home. Big bunch of us. We turned back at jurong east to acc cheryl take back handphone LOL. Finally. Then. I. Could. Go. Home.

omg slpt at like 12 DAMN early lars. And wake up at 12 LOLS I havent slpt so much in a long time already =D

As for today, FLASH FLASH AND MORE FLASH. Hahas. Gonna make some calls later and i gotta check my email inbox/inboxes now.

LATER~

btw...I must say... nothing lasts forever. Not even cold november rain...

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Fishy Weekend

Oh yes... went out to eat at Fish & Co. on Saturday... den went over to XJ's hse to celebrate peilin B'dae! Fun like Funfair siaaa...

Anyways I ate some fish & chips thingy there... same as jiehui.... foooood....

Argh feeling lazy to blog liaoz but still...

Lets get this part out of the way... the BORING 'this is my life' part of blogs =) alritez?
Ok so we went to xj's hse, i spammed photos like crazy, playing mahjong (sry for me being laggy at that) and... yeah ate xj's mom food woooo and go eat at the coffeeshop at serangoon there...

Pics of the day...






Pictures are NOT in order, I WILL UPLOAD THE REST TO FACEBOOK.

Thats that and so now...

Sometimes I try to lie to myself... I say to myself... get on ur feet, do ur stuff... but no... my mind goes straight down to hell and who knows wad else.

Its like... a sudden mind seizure? Suddenly I just feel that... I have to let it out.

Teenage Angst... ooo yeah tats what i'll use to describle myself right now... thats what im like having...?

Sometimes everything just feels screwed up. I just dunno what to feel. I just dunno what to do... and all the time, i'm just trying so damn hard to keep up with that face... yeah it seems fake but HEY LIKE YAR EVERYTHING'S FAKE.

There's nothing in this place, this world, between humans thats TOTALLY TRUE and HONEST.

Can I like use a little patience? I'm always blowing myself up with impatience and urgency... CAN I RELAX? Fuck i guess not.

I just really dunno wad to feel now. Arh forget it something's cropped up. I cut short my rant lars fark.

Shit this lars. 103 More Days. I'm just thinking of what's gonna happen... when it ends.


Thursday, July 2, 2009

Sense

Havent been saying much stuff thats logical or normal here lately... so im gonna just open blogger and see wad i have to say through the night!

@ 11.44PM:

Ok.... i just died in dota LOLS hahas very long nvr play with DMIT peeps le got leo, wl, jan, dehui wooo : D

@ 12.11PM:

Wahaha finish dota le now doing some club stuff helping wan : D

@ 12.54PM:

Still at it! Trying to find stuff to do hmmm i can't really say what im doing now lols its SECRET ;D

Dunno why... but i just feel like im in a dream right now... life was so different 2 years ago... haiz...

@ 1.12AM:

I dunno want to happy or to sian diao -.- got myself 15 coms for event BUT WHEN I NEEDED 20 -.- haizzz.

@ 1.38AM:

Dream Theater siol hahahas youtubed for them... just suddenly felt like listening to smt... that I can fall into and be held there...captivated...stuck in time, space and held in limbo... aww what am i saying -.-

@ 1.54AM:

Time for a bath... : D

@ 2.14AM:

Alritez im back... hmm what to do... what to do...

@ 3.31AM:

Going to my bedroom... sleep or not to sleep... haiz no rest for the wicked?
Well... haiz -.- wasted a bunch of my time

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Damning Myself

I told myself no.
No no no no no.
Never again.
But
W
T
F
is wrong with myself
I can't stop it
why?

Damn...

I KNOW I WILL HURT MYSELF BUT I JUST DUN EFFIN' GET IT! WHY AM I STILL ON THIS PATH